I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I don’t feel alone.
Section of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. a course in miracles The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to talk about wasn’t yet clear during those times; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your brain, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I really could not consider whatever I’d stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I’d in coming to the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere with its residents’reassurance, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.
You can find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.