I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is trading (sharing) a Track of Enjoy and Creation or judgments of the ego based on what you look for (agree with) in the mind. There is number other way. In the Course, your head (content) is separate between Lord and the ego; and you are choosing constantly with a side as cause for effect.
Types (all points of the world) are miscreations showing the ego’s judgmental thought system. We’ve made it up (miscreated that world) and may give it up any time by correcting your brain (forgiveness). Correct prayer requires this correction of your brain as God has nothing related to forms.
What Prayer is Perhaps not:
When you are always choosing, what you look for whenever you hope is what counts. Whenever you plead in prayer to have God correct an application trouble with another sort issue, you are wondering the pride brain for support (not God). Those types and wants are considered more important than God’s Enjoy that will remain concealed to their education you choose the illusion.
All additional points (forms) are needs. Different labels are needs, desires, status, issues, vomiting, human love (special relationships), presents and objectives in this world, etc. They are what you pick as substitutes for God’s Enjoy and the confidence can pose the objective of prayer by using them to further the illusion. Thus, prayer cannot be about “forms” or “needs” in just about any way.